Fun Fun Fun, I hope!

Off to a pyjama party tonight - Yay! Pyjamas, pizza and a bottle of rose... :)

Just thinkin...

Just thinkin I don't think I can always put my thoughts down in this blog cos if anyone ever actually reads it (not that I think anyone does) I could offend them with some of the stuff I just randomly think and come out with... oops

Really not sure what I'm doing here lol!

Sometimes I do wonder... Why do I end up going round in circles?

Ooh guess what!

Eeeek! Some loveliness and excitement recently. Get this... My best mate proposed to his girlfriend - and she said yes! Just as well cos I already bought a fascinator for their wedding lol! I've become an exhibitor at a lovely little art gallery in my town -yay! I have 2 pics on display in their exhibition at the minute, fingers crossed someone wants to buy them lol! Actually, doesn't matter if noone does cos come the end of the exhibition I'll just put em up at home lol! Oh and to add to the excitement, I kinda inadvertently (and rather more drunkenly than I would ordinarily sing) ended up entering a karaoke contest (I LOVE karaoke so HAD to sing, besides they were giving a free shot to singers! Be rude not to!) and have apparently been put through to the 'final' where I have a chance at winning a cash prize! Wish me luck...

Hello is this colour better?

hello is this colour better? But is it still pink enough?!

The blondefish and the funny new world

Well dear goodness! It's funny what you find when you google yourself! I had forgotten this blog existed! Funny though, I was considering starting a blog cos there's always random sh!t in my head and sometimes it's funny (or maybe occasionally witty!) and if I don't write it down I'll forget it...

Oh, blondefish is me btw. Well, it's somethin I thought of when I decided I wanted to be the next KT Tunstall and wanted to learn how to play the guitar as well as sing and thought that my band would need a name. Thinkin my band name should be a The though.... So another idea: The Flamingogoes - whaddya think? Like me it's pink, a bit quirky and ever-so-slightly cheesypop-wannabe indie, imo.

Not serious about the band thing I don't think, cos I don't think it'd work out in real life! I still LOVE to sing though - karaoke is probably as far as I'll get though ha!

Since I started this blog a lot of things have happened, some good, some not so good. Am still with my brilliant bloosmarti, still married. Not a student any more lol - I qualified in 2005 thankfully - but the end of student life hasn't been the end of the drama. But then, if everything went to plan life would be boring.. wouldn't it?
Another change is that I am a WEE bit more at ease with this here internet thing. I am on Facebook (handy way to keep up with friends and family I don't see enough of) and just very recently set up a flickr page to display photos cos I'm a tad snap-happy. I have a collection of photos at www.flickr.com/photos/pinksmarti - go have a look and lemme know what you think. ttfn

WooHoo!

Yay! Hello world! As you can probably get from the title I'm feeling a LOT more upbeat since my last post. I've got a great new job with some lovely people, but even better than that I've landed another attempt to finish my course at uni! YAY YAY YAY! So qualification may be just around the corner......... anyway, just thought I'd share that with you. Oh if you want to know how our fab new york break went, read bloosmarti's blog (when he gets time to write it - hee hee!)! TTFN x

happy thoughts.....

Ah.....happy thoughts. Guess what! Me n my yummy Phil are going to New York for about 5 days next month. We're both really looking forward to it because neither of us have ever been there before and we can't wait to see the place. There'll be loads for us to see and do an it'll be great to get away, just the two of us. Phil wants to hit the shops ( for toys and gadgets mainly!) - just his style. I think he's expecting me to want to hit the clothes stores... so who am I to disappoint him!? Hee hee! really, I'd quite like to see the sights and maybe go iceskating on central park if I can. Most importantly I want to have the time of my life with the man I love... Yay!

sounding off - ish

hi it's been a while and that's probably because I've been working my little a**e off at the bar. Plus our puter was misbehaving and wouldn't let me log on at all!! I've spent most of the spare time I have just kind of doing nothing and being kinda quiet cos I just don't know what else to do with myself. i'm supposed to be getting stuff sorted out but just don't seem to be getting anywhere with it. It's really depressing because this is my career we're talking about here. It's one of the biggest things in my whole life and I don't know for certain if I'm even gonna get it! What if I don't? Then what am I gonna do? Just not have a damn career?! I don't think I could do that. I don't want to stay in my current job for ever and there is nothing else I really want to do except care for people but how will I carry on doing that if I don't become a nurse? all I'd be is a failure. A student who wasn't good enough to clear the final hurdle. I don't want that to happen but I don't feel as though I have any control over the situation. It kind of caught me up in itself and snowballed off way beyond my reach... or at least that's how it feels most of the time. Anyway, if anyone actually read this then hope I didn't bring you down too, and thanks for the therapy. all you out there take care xx

where the hell've I been all this time!!

Okay so there's a hell of a lot to catch up on with me and I'm sure I'll probably forget stuff (maybe for your sanity and mine it's best that I do). It's not exactly been the most pink time over the last few months - more a kind of foul mix of angry red and manky, sickly green with the odd pink speck just to lighten things up a bit! Since I don't like this mix very much and I'm trying to pull myself out of this heavy mire anyway I promise to try to concentrate on the pretty pink bits in this update. Where to start?............
I'm still hanging around waiting to hear about what's going to happen to me and my career in uni but at least on Monday I should know what my assignment results are - what will I do if it's not good news?! I've been sad, scared and depressive as it is. Oh shit, before I've even gone into any of the other manky bad stuff that's hurting me at the moment I can see that this concentrating on the pink happy stuff isn't working so far - SORRY! La, la, la, try again....Guess what my yummy Phil n me did at Halloween. We both got dressed up in homemade costumes and went to a charity party. Phil went as a zombie with torn-up clothes and green makeup. Me, I went as a cat. Black boots ( which Phil had carefully covered with bin liners so they matched the shiny black tail he made me - he's an absolute star!), black fluffy jumper, little hotpants and a mask with ears that I made with a little help.. dramatic eye makeup, blonde hair left down and hey presto, fairly shiny authentic looking catwoman! I enjoyed it and the fact that it was all for a charity made it all even more worthwhile! Plus it was nice to get together with a group of really good people we probably don't see enough and besides, there was beer (hee, hee!).
My little brother just phoned me a minute ago. I'm really pleased because I've been missing him a lot and wasn't expecting to hear from him as he's out in Iraq with REME at the moment. I feel better now, about this and all of the above ( even the unmentioned stuff) and now I'm off to make myself a much needed cup of tea and wait for my Phil to come home cos I wanna put a smile on his face........