just wanna curl up and die - sorry!

Hi, I haven't been able to keep up with this blog thing. I haven't had any time at all and I've been just TOO STRESSED to do anything but panic about how badly everything has been going for me (and Phil) for the last couple of months. I had a problem with a friend at home and it really messed with my head, then it started affecting my work at uni. Part of this was probably due to the fact that I was trying to keep it all in! So when I did/do let it go it still really hits me. Unfortunately the problems didn't end there. I failed stuff at uni and couldn't qualify on time. At the moment I am working 5 days a week at the hospital to try and pass the outstanding stuff, I've redone my 2 assignments and am waiting for results (shitting bricks, I tell you). And all this while I'm getting NOTHING from the uni! Minimal to non-existent support and zero funding! UNBELIEVABLE! right now I had a kinda crappy day. First task was to lay out a dead guy, then bedbath some live people, then help a doctor do a lumbar puncture (huge tube needle into base of spinal column to draw off fluid), plus do medicine round. Then a patient of mine fell and sliced his elbow so there was stuff to do for him! Plus there's all the discharges, paperwork, ward rounds, patient problems etc to deal with. So okay, today has been a learning curve. oops I've just realised I promised I'd phone my Phil about now so I'd better go. It's been good to talk. TTFN